24. Elijah Fainting
But he himself went a day's journey into the wilderness, and came and sat down under a juniper tree: and he requested for himself that he might die; and said, It is enough; now, O Lord, take away my life; for I am not better than my fathers. I Kings 19:4
We may learn much from the lives of others Elijah himself is not only a prophet but a prophecy. His experience is our instruction.
Sometimes we enter into a strange and mysterious state of depression, and it is well to learn from Scripture that another has been in that Valley of Deathshade. Weary, and sick at heart, sorely tried ones are apt to faint. At such a time they imagine that some strange thing has happened unto them; but, indeed, it is not so. Looking down upon the sands of time they may see the print of a man's foot, and it ought to comfort them when they learn that he was no mean man, but a mighty servant of the Lord. Let us study:
I. ELIJAH'S WEAKNESS. "He requested for himself that he might die."
1. He was a man of like passions with us (James 5:17).
- He failed in the point wherein he was strongest; as many other saints have done. Abraham, Job, Moses, Peter, etc.
- This proved that he was strong not by nature, but in divine strength. He was no unfeeling man of iron, with nerves of steel. The wonder is not that he fainted, but that he ever stood up in the fierce heat which beat upon him.
2. He suffered from a terrible reaction. Those who go up go down. The depth of depression is equal to the height of rapture.
3. He suffered grievous disappointment, for Ahab was still under Jezebel's sway, and Israel was not won to Jehovah.
4. He was sadly weary with the excitement of Carmel, and the unwonted run by the side of Ahab's chariot.
5. His wish was folly. "O Lord, take away my life."
- He fled from death. If he wished to die, Jezebel would have obliged him, and he needed not to have fled.
- He was more needed than ever to maintain the good cause.
- That cause was also more than ordinarily hopeful, and he ought to have wished to live to see better times.
- He was never to die. Strange that he who was to escape death should cry, "Take away my life!" How unwise are our prayers when our spirits sink!
6. His reason was untrue. It was not enough: and the Lord had made him, in some respects, better than his fathers.
- He had more to do than they, and he was stronger, more bold, more lonely in witness, and more terrible in majesty.
- He had more to enjoy than most of the other prophets, for he had greater power with God, and had wrought miracles surpassed by none.
- He had been more favored by special providence and peculiar grace, and was yet to rise above all others in the manner of his departure: the chariots of God were to wait upon him.
II. GOD'S TENDERNESS TO HIM.
1. He allowed him to sleep: this was better than medicine, or inward rebuke, or spiritual instruction.
2. He fed him with food convenient and miraculously nourishing.
3. He made him perceive angelic care. "An angel touched him."
4. He allowed him to tell his grief (verse 10): this is often the readiest relief. He stated his case, and in so doing eased his mind.
5. He revealed himself and his ways. The wind, earthquake, fire, and still small voice were voices from God. When we know what God is we are less troubled about other matters.
6. He told him good news: "Yet I have left me seven thousand in Israel" (verse 18). His sense of loneliness was thus removed.
7. He gave him more to do-to anoint others by whom the Lord's purposes of chastisement and instruction should be carried on.
Let us learn some useful lessons.
- It is seldom right to pray to die; that matter is best left with God; we may not destroy our own lives, nor ask the Lord to do so.
- To the sinner it is never right to seek to die; for death to him is hell. The willful suicide seals his own sure condemnation.
- To the saint such a wish is allowable, only within bounds. He may long for heaven, but not for the mere sake of getting away from service or suffering, disappointment or dishonor.
- To desire death may be proper under some aspects; but not to pray for it with eagerness.
- When we do wish to die, the reason must not be impatient, passionate, petulant, proud, or indolent.
- We have no idea of what is in store for us in this life. We may yet see the cause prosper and ourselves successful.
- In any case let us trust in the Lord and do good, and we need never be afraid.
Selections
What is this we hear? Elijah fainting and giving up! that heroical Spirit dejected and prostrate! He that durst say to Ahab's face, "It is thou and thy father's house that trouble Israel"; he that could raise the dead, open and shut the heavens, fetch down both fire and water with his prayers; he that durst chide and contest with all Israel; that durst kill the four hundred and fifty Baalites with the sword — doth he shrink at the frowns and threats of a woman? Doth he wish to be rid of his life, because he feared to lose it? Who can expect an undaunted constancy from flesh and blood when Elijah fails? The strongest and holiest saint upon earth is subject to some qualms of fear and infirmity: to be always and unchangeably good is proper only to the glorious spirits in heaven. Thus the wise and holy God will have his power perfected in our weakness. It is in vain for us, while we carry this flesh about us, to hope for so exact health as not to be cast down sometimes with fits of spiritual distemper. It is no new thing for holy men to wish for death: who can either marvel at or blame the desire of advantage? For the weary traveler to long for rest, the prisoner for liberty, the banished for home, it is so natural, that the contrary disposition were monstrous. The benefit of the change is a just motive to our appetition; but to call for death out of a satiety of life, out of an impatience of suffering, is a weakness unbeseeming a saint. It is not enough, O Elijah! God hath more work yet for thee: thy God hath more honored thee than thy fathers, and thou shalt live to honor him.
Toil and sorrow have lulled the prophet asleep under this junipertree; that wholesome shade was well chosen for his repose. While death was called for, the cozen of death comes unbidden; the angel of God waits on him in that hard lodging. No wilderness is too solitary for the attendance of those blessed spirits. As he is guarded, so is he awaked by that messenger of God, and stirred up from his rest to his repast; while he slept, his breakfast is made ready for him by those spiritual hands: "There was a cake baked on the coals, and a cruse of water at his head." Oh, the never-ceasing care and providence of the Almighty, not to be barred by any place, by any condition! When means are wanting to us, when we are wanting to ourselves, when to God, even then cloth he follow us with his mercy, and cast favor upon us, beyond, against expectation! What variety of purveyance cloth he make for his servant! One while the ravens, then the Sareptan, now the angel, shall be his caterer; none of them without a miracle: those other provided for him waking, this sleeping. O God! the eye of thy providence is not dimmer, the hand of thy power is not shorter: only teach thou us to serve thee, to trust thee. — Bp. Hall
Elijah "arose and went for his life." But better he had stood to his task as a prophet, and answered as Chrysostom did when Eudoxia the empress threatened him. "Go tell her;' said he, "I fear nothing but sin"; or as Basil did, when Valens, the Arian emperor, sent him word that he would be the death of him: would he would," said he, "I shall but go to heaven the sooner." Luther had his fits of fear, though ordinarily he could say, "I care neither for the Pope's-favor nor fury." Gregory doubted not to say, that because Elijah began to be tickled with high conceits of himself for the great acts which he had done, he was suffered thus to fear, and to fall beneath himself, for his humiliation. The like we see in Peter, scared by a silly wench: to show us how weak, even as water, we are, when left a little to ourselves. — John Trap?
Who told Elijah it was "enough"? God did not; he knew what was enough for Elijah to do and to suffer. It was not enough. God had more to teach him, and had more work for him to do. If the Lord had taken him at his word, and had also said "it is enough," Elijah's history would have wanted its crowning glory. — Kitto
It cannot be denied, that in the expression "it is enough!" we behold the anguish of a soul which, disappointed in its fairest expectations, seems to despair of God and of the world, and is impatient and weary of the cross; a soul which, like Jonah, is dissatisfied with the dealings of the Almighty, and by desiring death, seeks, as it were, to give him to understand, that it is come to such an extremity, that nothing is left but the melancholy wish to escape by death from its sufferings. Nevertheless, a Divine and believing longing accompanied even this carnal excitement in the soul of Elijah, which, thirsting after God, struck its pinions upwards to the eternal light; yes, the key-note of this mournful lamentation was the filial thought that the heart of his Father in heaven would be moved towards him, that his merciful God would again shine forth upon his darkness, and comfort the soul of his servant. Thus we see, in the prayer of our prophet, the elements of the natural and of the spiritual life fermenting together in strange intermixture. The sparks of nature and of grace, mutually opposing each other, blaze up together in one flame. The metal is in the furnace, the heat of which brings impurity to light; but who does not forget the scum and the dross at the sight of the fine gold? —F. W. Krummacher
I. The cause of Elijah's despondency. (1) Relaxation of physical strength. (2) Second cause — Want of sympathy. "I, even I only, am left." Lay the stress on only. The loneliness of his position was shocking to Elijah. (3) Want of occupation. As long as Elijah had a prophet's work to do, severe as that work was, all went on healthily: but his occupation was gone. Tomorrow and the day after, what has he left on earth to do? The misery of having nothing to do proceeds from causes voluntary or involuntary in their nature. (4) Fourth cause — Disappointment in his expectations of success. On Carmel the great object for which Elijah had lived seemed on the point of being realized. Baal's prophets were slain — Jehovah acknowledged with one voice: false worship put down. Elijah's life-aim — the transformation of Israel into a kingdom of God — was all but accomplished. In a single day all this bright picture was annihilated. II. God's treatment of it. (1) First, he recruited his servant's exhausted strength.
Read the history. Miraculous meals are given — then Elijah sleeps, wakes, and eats: on the strength of that, he goes forty days' journey. (2) Next, Jehovah calmed his stormy mind by the healing influences of nature. He commanded the hurricane to sweep the sky, and the earthquake to shake the ground. He lighted up the heavens till they were one mass of fire. All this expressed and reflected Elijah's feelings. The mode in which nature soothes us is by finding meeter and nobler utterances for our feelings than we can find in words — by expressing and exalting them. In expression there is relief. (3) Besides, God made him feel the earnestness of life. What doest thou here, Elijah? Life is for doing. A prophet's life for nobler doing — and the prophet was not doing, but moaning. Such a voice repeats itself to all of us, rousing us from our lethargy, or our despondency, or our protracted leisure, "What doest thou here?" here in this short life. (4) He completed the cure by the assurance of victory. "Yet have I left me seven thousand in Israel who have not bowed the knee to Baal." So, then, Elijah's life had no failure after all. — F. W. Robertson
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24. 以利亞的灰心
他自己走了一日的路程,來到曠野,坐在一棵羅騰樹下,就求死,說:「耶和華啊,罷了!求你取我的性命,因為我不勝於我的列祖。」
——列王紀上 19:4
我們可以從他人的生命中學到許多功課。以利亞不只是先知,他本身也是一個預表;他的經歷成了我們的教訓。
有時我們會陷入一種奇異而難以解釋的低潮狀態;此時,從聖經得知「早已有他人走過這死亡蔭影的幽谷」,實在大有幫助。疲乏、心靈憂傷、遭受嚴厲試煉的人,極易灰心。在那樣的時刻,人會以為自己遭遇了前所未有的怪事;其實不然。若俯視時間的沙灘,我們會看到一個人的腳印,而當得知那人並非庸常之輩,乃是主大能的僕人時,心便得安慰。
讓我們來思想——
一、以利亞的軟弱
「他求死。」
- 他與我們一樣,有同樣的性情(雅 5:17)
他正是在自己最剛強之處失敗,正如許多聖徒一樣:亞伯拉罕、約伯、摩西、彼得等。
這證明他的剛強並非出於天性,而是出於神的能力。他不是鐵石心腸、鋼鐵神經的人。奇妙的不是他曾灰心,而是他竟能在猛烈的烈日下站立那麼久。
- 他承受了極大的反彈
人上升之後,往往隨之而下沉;低谷的深度,正與高峰的高度相等。
- 他遭受了沉重的失望
亞哈仍在耶洗別的掌控之下,以色列並未歸向耶和華。
- 他身心極度疲憊
迦密山的激烈爭戰,加上非常規地奔跑在亞哈車旁,使他筋疲力盡。
- 他的祈求是愚昧的
「主啊,取我的性命!」
他其實是在逃避死亡;若他真想死,耶洗別早就能成全他,他根本不必逃跑。
此時此刻,他比任何時候都更需要活著,來持守善工。
那事工也比以往更充滿盼望;他本該渴望活著,看見更好的時代。
何等奇怪!這位根本不會死的人,竟呼喊:「取我的性命!」當靈魂下沉時,我們的禱告何其愚昧!
- 他的理由並不真實
「夠了」並不是真的;主在某些方面確實使他勝過列祖。
他肩負更多使命,更剛強、更勇敢、更孤單地作見證,也更具屬靈威嚴。
他享有更大的特權——與神更親近,行了無與倫比的神蹟,並蒙特殊的護理與恩典;而且,他將以無人能及的方式離世——神的戰車要迎接他。
二、神對他的溫柔憐憫
- 神讓他安睡
這比藥物、責備或屬靈教訓更有效。
- 神供應合宜、奇妙滋養的食物
- 神使他感受到天使的看顧
「有一位天使拍他。」
- 神容許他傾訴憂苦(10 節)
這往往是最迅速的醫治;說出來,心就得釋放。
- 神向他顯明自己與祂的作為
大風、地震、火、微小的聲音,都是神的聲音。當我們真正認識神,其他事便不再那麼困擾我們。
- 神告訴他好消息
「我在以色列中為自己留下七千人」(18 節),他的孤單感因此被醫治。
- 神賜給他新的使命
去膏立他人,使神的管教與教訓繼續推進。
屬靈教訓
- 通常不應禱告求死;這事當交託神。
- 對罪人而言,求死永遠不對,因為死亡對他就是地獄。
- 對聖徒而言,只能有限度地渴望離世——為天國,不是為逃避責任、痛苦或羞辱。
- 若渴望死亡,動機不可是急躁、驕傲、懶惰或任性。
- 我們並不知道神在今生為我們預備了什麼;或許仍將看見事工興旺、自己蒙用。
- 無論如何,倚靠耶和華、行善,就無須懼怕。
精選評論(節錄翻譯)
選文:以利亞的灰心與神的扶持
我們聽到什麼?以利亞竟然灰心、想要放棄!那位英勇的靈魂,如此憂懼與屈服!他曾敢當面對亞哈說:「是你和你父的家使以色列遭難!」他能使死人復活,開關天門,藉祈禱降火降水;他敢責備整個以色列,敢用刀殺掉四百五十個巴力先知——如今卻因一個女人的怒視與威脅而退縮嗎?他竟然想結束自己的生命,因為害怕失去它?若連以利亞都會動搖,誰還能指望血肉之軀有無畏的恒心呢?即便地上最堅強、最聖潔的聖徒,也難免心生恐懼與軟弱;永遠不變的善良,只屬於天上的榮耀靈魂。於是,智慧而聖潔的神要在我們的軟弱中彰顯祂的能力。我們帶著這血肉之軀,卻希望自己總是心志堅定,不偶爾陷入屬靈低潮,這是徒然的。聖人渴望死亡並非新鮮事;誰能奇怪或責怪他們呢?疲憊的旅人渴望休息,囚徒盼望自由,被放逐者思念故鄉,都是極自然的;若反之,才是怪異。變化的益處是正當的動機,但因厭倦生命、急於擺脫痛苦而求死,是不配聖徒的軟弱。「夠了嗎?以利亞啊!不夠!神還有工作要你完成;你的神已比你的列祖更尊榮你,你仍要活著來尊榮祂。」
勞苦與悲哀使先知在羅騰樹下沉睡;那蔭涼是安眠的好地方。當他呼求死亡時,死亡的騙子卻無聲來臨;神的天使守護在他身邊。在這荒野中,也無處可阻擋神賜福靈的照應。他被看顧,也被天使喚醒,從休息中喚起去吃飯;當他沉睡時,天使已為他準備好早餐:「炭火上有烤餅,頭邊有水壺。」啊,萬有的上帝!祢的看顧不因任何地方或條件而中斷!當我們缺乏手段、缺乏自己、甚至在神面前似乎軟弱時,祂仍以慈愛追隨,出乎我們意料地賜恩!祂為僕人提供各種供應:有時是渡鴉,有時是撒勒法的寡婦,如今又是天使;每一項都伴隨神蹟:醒著時有,睡著時也有。哦,神啊!祢的眼不暗,祢的手不短,只願祢教我們服事祢,倚靠祢。
——主教霍爾(Bp. Hall)
以利亞「起來,為了性命而行」。但更理想的是,他應如基利蘇多莫斯(Chrysostom)所行,當尤多西婭皇后威脅時說:「去告訴她吧,我只懼怕罪。」或如巴西流(Basil)對亞流派皇帝瓦倫斯說:「他想害死我?很好,我只會更早上天堂。」路德也有恐懼,但平常能說:「我不在意教皇的好惡或憤怒。」
格里高利說,當以利亞因自己偉大的作為而心生驕傲時,神允許他恐懼、低頭,以成謙卑。我們也見彼得因一個愚蠢的少女而受驚:這顯示人若稍稍獨自面對自己,是多麼脆弱如水。——約翰·特拉普(John Trap)
誰告訴以利亞「夠了」?不是神。神知道以利亞所要行與所要受的,並不夠。神還要教導他更多,也有更多工作給他做。若主聽從他求死的話,並說「夠了」,以利亞的歷史就少了它的榮耀冠冕。——基托(Kitto)
無可否認,「夠了!」這句話中,我們看到一顆靈魂的痛苦——當最美好的期望破滅時,似乎絕望於神與世界,對十字架心生急躁與疲倦;如約拿般不滿神的作為,求死彷彿是要告訴神「我已走到極限,只剩下這悲哀的願望,希望透過死亡逃避痛苦」。然而,神聖且信靠的渴望仍伴隨以利亞心中的肉體激動,他渴慕神,心翼高飛向永恆光明;這哀痛的主調,正是他心中對天父的孝心,相信憐憫的神會再次照亮他的黑暗,安慰僕人靈魂。
因此,在以利亞禱告中,我們看到自然生命與屬靈生命的元素奇異交融;自然與恩典的火花相互對立,卻同時燃燒成一個火焰。金屬置於熔爐,熱將不純之物顯出,但誰不會在見到精金時忘記渣滓?——F. W. 克魯馬赫(F. W. Krummacher)
一、以利亞灰心的原因
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體力衰弱
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缺乏同情與陪伴
「只有我自己剩下。」——特別強調「只有」。孤單的處境讓以利亞震驚。
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缺乏事工
當以利亞有先知的工作要做時,雖嚴峻,一切都順利;但工作消失後,他又能做什麼呢?無事可做的痛苦,來自自願或非自願的原因。
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期望落空
迦密山的目標幾乎完成:巴力先知被殺、以色列齊聲認耶和華、假拜偶像被制止;以利亞生命的目標——將以色列轉化為神的國——幾乎實現。然而,一天之內,所有美景化為烏有。
二、神對他的處理
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恢復體力
奇蹟般的食物供應,使以利亞能睡、醒、吃;憑這力量,他行了四十天的路程。
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自然界的安慰
神用風、地震、火來安撫他狂亂的心,這些現象表達並映照他的感受。自然的安慰方式,往往比語言更能表達情感,並將其提升。
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讓他感受到生命的重要性
「以利亞啊,你在這裡做什麼?」生命是用來行事的;先知的生命是為了更崇高的事工,而他只是哀嘆。這聲音也呼喚我們:「你在這短暫的生命中在做什麼?」
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給予勝利的保證
「我在以色列中仍為自己留下七千人,未曾向巴力下拜。」所以,以利亞的一生並未失敗。——F. W. 羅伯遜(F. W. Robertson)
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